I like when people brag about their musical tastes being "diverse". It makes me giggle at how small their world really is. If you really were that diverse, you wouldn't brag about it. You'd just be. . .its like saying that you're not a racist at every opportunity. Well, if you're not a racist, guess what? You don't have to say it.

So, what did I just buy from iTunes? What do you mean, you don't care? Pipe down, pipsqueak and enjoy the recently bought artists widget that iTunes so lovingly provides. They even cooked me dinner.

Javann's Year of Immense Proportion!!
(Slightly overrated)
(Makes you not want to read this doesn't it?)


1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Uh. . .crap. Paid over 2000 dollars of my own money in car repairs?

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Sorry, I don't resolve anything much less during new years.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Renee Brazelton, and I'm sure some other people

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Ben Williams. I wish I'd known him better

5. What countries did you visit?
America! Yay!
6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
Money. Time. Power. Respect. (What you need in life?)
7. What date(s) from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 7th - 7/7/07 emphasized perfection, also the date that I turned 25. Unfortunately everyone and their mom wanted to get married on that date. Stupid.

8. What were your biggest achievements of the year?
Getting back in school, and getting another job. And finally quitting FedEx. Man, that felt good.
9. What was your biggest failure?
I guess being a good friend. . .

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yeah a few sicknesses and a ton of scars.
11. What were the best things you bought?
A new phone! a coffee table (very nice) and a really cool upright floor lamp
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Any friends that I still have that put up with me and all that's entailed with that.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Everyone apalled me at times, myself included. Depressed me? My own behavior mostly.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Food, gas (my goodness the gas!) gadgetry, and stupid transfer fees. Redstone you suck!
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Starting a new job. . .wow I suck.
16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Here We Go Again - O.K. Go Cause of the Treadmill video
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
(a) happier or sadder? About the same
(b) thinner or fatter? Thinner
(c) richer or poorer? Still broke.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Saving. I know it sounds old, but dude if I'd just saved more money. . .
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Working, acting without rational thought, spending money

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Somewhere dark quiet, and thankfully non-festive

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
Nopers. No love to report. Sorry. Don't hold your breath for next year, I'm pretty sure this won't change.

23. How many one-night stands?
I've got this nice plastic rubber maid storage drawer set that I keep next to my bed, had a five inch television on it, so I guess you can call it a night stand. And it is a singular.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Started out watching Heroes, then I hit this I'm no longer watching TV and willingly being controlled by mass medai phase that I'm currently in now. So now I hate all television. . .though I don't qualify music videos on youtube, televised sporting events, newscasts involving sports, and DVD's as television
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
My list of abhorrance is only comparable to my list of mistakes.

26. What was the best book you read?
The Art of War by Sun Tzu. Get down with some of this.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
This year? Uh. . .crap, haven't really been trying to listen to new music this year. My bad.
28. What did you want and get?
A new place to stay, and a new job. Rock.
29. What did you want and not get?
Completion.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Hmmm. . .I Am Legend was good. . .text me for a better answer.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 25 on July 7th, and I became perfection emphasized. . .lol, just kidding. I wonder if anyone turned 25 on 6/6/06. How embarrassing. . .

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Learning more. About anything.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
Hip-hop preppy.
34. What kept you sane?
Who said I was sane?

35. Which celebrity figure did you fancy the most?
Man that Jessica Biel is hot. . .and so's Meagan Fox, as well as Meagan Goode.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The incredibly infallibleness of world issues to conform to Bible prophecy.

37. Who did you miss?
Uh. . .um. . .I don't think I missed anyone.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Didn't meet to many new people, and they were all bad. Rock.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007?
Get up, get out, and do something with yourself.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
It's alright / to tell me / what you think / about me
I won't try / to argue / or hold it / against you
I know that / you're leaving / you must have / your reasons
the season / is calling / and your pictures / are falling down

The steps that / I retrace / the sad look / on your face
the timing / and structure / did you hear / he her?
a day late / a buck short / I'm writing / the report
on losing / and failing / when I move / I'm flailing now

And it's happened once again
I'll turn to a friend
someone that understands
sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
and I've been here for too long
to face this on my own
well I guess this is growing up
well I guess this is growing up

And maybe / I'll see you / at a movie / sneak preview
you'll show up / and walk by / on the arm / of that guy
and I'll smile / and you'll wave / we'll pretend / it's okay
the charade / it won't last / when he's gone / I won't come back

And it'll happen once again
you'll turn to a friend
someone that understands
and sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
and you've been there for too long
to face this on your own
well I guess this is growing up

Well, I guess this is growing up
well, I guess this is growing up
well, I guess this is growing up
well, I guess this is growing up
well, I guess this is growing up
Don't ask for explanation. Well you can ask, I won't guarantee the answers. Anyway, thanks for the time, and spit the intelligence at me.

Sometimes you just feel the need to get out of town, you know?
So I'm in the beautiful town of Nashville today, hanging out with my good friends Tre and ReG. That's pretty much the long and short of it. I don't have a lot to say, but I will say sometimes I just feel the need to leave town. So I did. I gotta admit, it feels great. I'll write more whenever I can think of something worthwhile. For now, I'm going to go practice playing my harmonica.

Guess who's back? Back again?
So. . .here we are. I started this blog in college, because it was "the thing to do", never did work out that not being a follower thing and over the years, there's been pictures of the hulk, samples of songs I liked, my thoughts, well really my rants, on any and everything, and of course, my favorite, what I like to call jerk vision. That would be these extremely biased italicized comments that generally say what I'm afraid to say. Or just quotes songs and movies. Whatever. And here I am. A college dropout. Or least I was a college dropout, for now, now I am a college student once more. And I know what you're thinking, didn't college break me? Turn me into a quivering mass of flesh consumed with anger? First, I should point out that while those thoughts are eloquent and a tad bit disturbing, they are rather accurate. Yes, I got broken. Higher learning and academics turned me into a bitter shell of a man. And I think admitting that there was something that I couldn't do, actually made me a better person. Knowing that I can't do everything, knowing that I'm not invincible, that my mind isn't some automatic safety net really helped me to understand something. If I want anything, in this life or another, I have to earn it. Nothing lasts forever, so to speak, but nothing is ever given to you. If someone hands you something, there is always a cost, there is always something that you must do. You may not earn the right to have that thing, but you do need to show that you want it. So now, now I am going back to the very establishment which spit me out, and I am standing tall, older, wiser, and a considerable deal more intelligently, and I am defying it to do me in again. I know that I have what it takes, and what's more, I know that history will not repeat itself, if for no other reason than I won't let it beat me again. So if you like an underdog story, if you want to know if I can take a KO punch and keep swinging, then keep coming back here, because I will continue documenting my rise from the canvas. Or at least start blogging again. With some regularity. Or maybe none at all. I really couldn't say with any definitive statement. But come back. I'll definitely make it worth your while.

Its been awhile. . .

Two years ago, I was here.
But I really didn't want to be here.
I wanted to be anywhere
See if you knew where here was,
if you knew you'd envy me,
hate me
want to be me,
but ultimately,
you'd be glad you weren't here.
Potentially trapped,
potential that remains untapped,
its actually unsettling,
not that I'm settling
but I'm not settled,
I'm not well, not worth my "mettle"
I can't even make my thoughts rhyme,
let alone just nod my head on time,
to a beat that everyone else hears,
its like being a guest star on Cheers,
my worthy peers,
know what they hold dear,
they live they laugh,
and to me I guess its clear,
the hunger I held,
the hunger I still hold,
will always be young,
even when I grow old.
Right?