Like sands through the hourglass, so go. . .wait, that's from a soap opera isn't it? I'll stop quoting it now, there'll be no intrigue or immorality on this site. Well maybe some intrigue, and definitely some plot twists, but no immorality. Man, the week flew by, its like Wednesday and Thursday didn't happen. Lets pretend it didn't and stay in the present. I've decided the past is nothing but a bad idea for everyone involved. The past is nothing but a bad idea for everyone involved. See, me repeating the past resulted in stupidity. That alone proves my point. Actually I've not given this enough thought, but in reality the past is nothing but the present gone by. Have you noticed that all I'm doing is stating facts and making it seem that it proves my point? The reason for this sparse exercise in reason is because I'm tired. Very. I'm trying to get in "sync" for school, since I have eight o'clock classes, but truthfully, I'm failing miserably at it. Getting up at eight is too much for me, but that's what I get for registering late. I suppose I should learn a lesson from this, but well, lessons are a lot like fried chicken. Everyone wants it, but no one wants to pay for it. See what I mean about that tired thing? I'm definitely losing my mind, or perhaps I lost it some time ago and this is just the residual side effects. Yeah, that's what's going on. At any rate, perhaps I'll come back when I'm a little more coherent.

Tuesday, the day of um, tues! Yes, wonderful tues. Now I want to look up what Tuesday was all about, and who it was dedicated to. Anyway, just got off work, after a long, and I do mean long, absence, everything felt heavy and disorganized, but I was able to do away with the disorganized part pretty quickly. The heavy part will go away as I work more. But man, the place was a mess when I got there, all of the storage rooms had chairs and tables and other such items crammed in with no order or reason to them. I've never felt more like a parent as I pulled all of the mess out and then reorganized it. My back's all tight from that now. I don't understand how one grown man can make such a mess of things. Doesn't he realize that keeping things orderly makes our respective jobs easier? Does he miss seeing that I reorganize the entire thing when I work? Why doesn't he follow my relatively good example? Not to mention, he's raised three kids, how the heck did he manage that with such poor organizational skills. Its a wonder he didn't lose one of those kids in his house because of all the mess. I'd say something to him, but that'd be very disrespectful since he is twice my age, or maybe even three times my age, and I can't very well tell him that he's a complete slob, and if he doesn't get his act together, I'll. . .do nothing because I can't do anything to him. I couldn't threaten him with physical harm, but I'd prefer to do that when I have another job lined up. Just kidding, but you see my point. There's nothing I can do but vent on my blog, and wish that someday he'd stumble upon it and realize I'm talking about him. No chance of that right? Right. Anyway, as my father just told me, I should take this time to study, so let me go study something. . .as if school has started. Next Monday begins the same old grind, except there'll be no weekend for me. Figures. Oh well, I guess its not like its not expected. I'm going to gain some much needed sleep. Feel free to let me know you're reading this. Just to make me feel better about myself.

Hey hey its Sunday. . .well well its sunday. Yep, its sunday and the weekend is drawing to its end as the week approaches. I guess its time to start that same old grind again. Yep yep. So what's the haps? Saturday was fun, went to play football and then bowling, with some sleeping and showering mixed in. And a funky good time was had by all. As far as thoughts go, well, my only thoughts are that my friends are getting older. How do I know this? The majority of them are getting married, or dating, and well, then there's me. There's nothing in the works for me, because I'm just that cool. Or I'm a loser. Either one. But not to worry, its actually kinda fun to see who's next. If I were a gambling man, and i'm not, I'd be passing out odds on each person, there'd be a ton of money to be made. I kid I kid. Anyway, I gotta go get ready for the meeting at some point today, so I'll make it this point. Don't worry I'll be back with a more. . .cohesive thought soon enough.

Somebody else did it, so will I. This is my yearly recap, thanks Bev for uh, ahem lending this form to me. I'll return it slightly used next year. . .or as soon as possible. :D Anyway, without further ado I present to you:

Javann's Year of Immense Proportion!!
(Slightly overrated)
(Makes you not want to read this doesn't it?)


1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?
I got a job. It was great fun. Really. Okay it sucked.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Sorry, I don't resolve anything much less during new years.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Two sisters in our cong had children during the 2003 year

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Fortunately no, I'd say no one I could remember, but I can't remember them dying, I couldn't have been that close to them.

5. What countries did you visit?
I visited none. (Sigh)

6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
More time. Conversely more wisdom to use the time I did have more efficiently.

7. What date(s) from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 7th - Turned 21!
July 10th (or so) - Aaron came to visit
July or August something- Went to Tennessee capped off the best summer of my life, blah blah blah
December 31 - Realized that the year over, wondered where it went

8. What were your biggest achievements of the year?
Changing my major

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not accepting the the reality of life.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Whiplash from football, other than that, just my normal cuts scars and allergies

11. What were the best things you bought?
Car repair items, and my favorite brush

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Any friends that I still have that put up with me and all that entailed with that.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Everyone apalled me at times, myself included. Depressed me? My own behavior mostly.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Food, gas, cell phone bill, car repairs, and oh yeah, food.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Trip to Tennessee (was that this year?)
Aaron's visit
District Convention (seems so long ago)

16. What song will always remind you of 2003?
Its Come To This - Fuel

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
(a) happier or sadder? Happier actually, last year this time sucked.
(b) thinner or fatter? Ah, prosperity. On the plus side I'm evening out, but my job is so physical I can't help but gain weight.
(c) richer or poorer? Still broke.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Traveling, and wish I'd done more thinking period

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Working, acting without rational thought

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Somewhere dark quiet, and thankfully non-festive

22. Did you fall in love in 2003?
Nopers. No love to report. Sorry. Don't hold your breath for next year, I'm pretty sure this won't change.

23. How many one-night stands?
I've got this nice plastic rubber maid storage drawer set that I keep next to my bed, had a five inch television on it, so I guess you can call it a night stand. And it is a singular.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Started watching 10 - 8, just seemed like a cool show to watch, seeing how everything on TV is crap.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
My list of abhorrance is only comparable to my list of mistakes.

26. What was the best book you read?
A Brief Illustrated History of Time - Stephen Hawkings. I finally finished that book. That thing gave me headache and a years worth of thoughts. Excellent book for those who have the nerve to finish it.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
James Brown, Etta James, Juice Mouse Zero, myself (how conceited), A Tribe Called Quest, (I knew they were talented, but not how much) Ronnie Size, Rahzel, Postal Service (I think that was this year) Joy Electric (yeah that was this year) Sunny Day Real Estate, the Flaming Lips, the Eels, (how did I sleep on these bands?) Guru, John Coltrane (jazz is how i feel), the Stone Roses, (I gotta find more by them) Muse, COLDPLAY (too bad Martin's gone and diluted their music in the name of love, BAH!!), Portishead (I just actually listened to them back in January, blind or def, you decide) and so much more that I really don't have time to keep going, but let me not forget Roy Ayers, Con Funk Shun, The Funkadelics, Liam Lynch, Fine China, AND!! Scripted Failures. Rock.
28. What did you want and get?
Fixed car, oxygen, and more friends

29. What did you want and not get?
Completion.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
I just saw Undercover Brother (not sure if that was this year or not, but I just saw it this year!) and man that's funny. That'll be my favorite that I saw.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 21 on July 7th, I basically did what I did on every other day of my life. Sorry no drunken binges or such. That came weeks later. . . I mean, er um, next question!

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Learning more. About anything.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
Less trashy than before, but still neatly unkempt in a baggy hip-hop kind of way. This year so the inclusion of cologne on more than just special occasions.

34. What kept you sane?
Who said I was sane?

35. Which celebrity figure did you fancy the most?
Uh, honestly, none of them. I'm not a huge fancier of celebrity figures, I'm more enraptured by a personality than I am the expensive good looks.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The incredibly infallibleness of world issues to conform to Bible prophecy.

37. Who did you miss?
Uh. . .um. . .I don't think I missed anyone.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Several new people I met were cool, the Schedel's from Canada, they were rock, I kinda got to know Matthew, he's definitely rock, Amber and Kate(cher) from Haleyville, sorry my meeting you had to be on the terms of exacting revenge for something you didn't do to me, but hey! Um. . .yes, hey. And met E-Dub again for the first time.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003?
Being alone doesn't make you lonely.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Halcyon Days - The Tea Party. Sums up a year quite well if you ask me.

alone, left here in dust
amidst my fears and doubts
life's shattered dreams I could have
gone without
now chthonic life has set its sights on
making me a slave to its ways
i wait for return
until then my soul it burns
and it burns only for you...

i'll be with you soon...

night it falls on me endlessly
and i search for you in this blindness
i'm a prodigy of lust and loss
'till sleep comes down

i can't explain, this disdain remains
this treason i can't reason
they left me here for dread my dear
barely breathiung, but i'm still breathing

now i see a light
it's shining from above
i think they've finally come
the halcyon days

I'm crawling now up
towards the sound
vengeance moves so swiftly
i've conquered fear
i've shed my tears
now i'm seething, barely breathing

now i see a light
shining from above
i think they'vbe finally come
the halcyon days

Don't ask for explanation. Well you can ask, I won't guarantee the answers. Anyway, thanks for the time, and spit the intelligence at me.

Well, once again time is of the essence so I will make this as condensed and yet entertaining as I possibly can. Yesterday, or I should say last night, was one of interestingly unepic proportions, I went to see Paycheck, an interesting movie to say the least which brings up the age old time argument that if you can see the future, and then react to said future, then you alter the future, meaning you never saw the future that caused you to alter it, which means you never would have altered the future, which means whatever you sought to change, didn't. Okay, that haven't been done, I also spend the better half of last night in a fast food restaurant, hoping to get my hands on those tasty Krystal's (and they are tasty) and quelch my ever grumbling stomach. So I went inside, since the drive through line was several cars long, and since I don't mind using my legs, considering I'm getting ready to eat enough glycogen(not sure what glycogen is) to drop a third world country. That made no sense, but in the long run, I went inside at about 1:01. As I waited I begin to realize a horrible truth. The line for food was longer inside than outside. My ticket was number 133. The ticket I heard called next was 125. And they were moving em out at least a ticket every ten minutes. I also noticed there were a lot of people complaining about the wait. Maybe its just me, but my patience isn't renowned throughout the land. But the funny thing is, I can wait for long periods of time for food, or something I want, when my patience with the people in the store quickly ran thin. I spent the better part of the night, wanting to tell the loudmouthed little girl with too much liquor in her system to shut up, as well as remind her that waiting 20 minutes for food isn't going to kill her. It was one of those loud people that feel the need to utter loud expletives and then when offered to have her receipt exchanged for her money back, she declined it, because she "likes the food too much". I could go on for days, but as mentioned at the outset, my time is limited, suffice it to say, I learned a lot about people in that twenty minutes, one thing being that the majority of people are intolerably impatient. Of course, there's nothing I can do about it. Enjoy your year.